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>Mochiberry!

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yup, September 5 was my first time in Red Mango
I bought of course, the famous one Mochiberry (pic above)! so yummy!
it's indescribable, you have to try it by yourself.

so, here's the story me and my girls, Yunita and Stella made a promise (did we?) to come try this yogurt together. But under one circumstance, I break the promise, owwhh.. so sorry dear.
Please, don't jealous me =p just think about it this way,
maybe I just got the chance earlier than you both.
But sure, 3 of us really like FroYo maniac! yeah, you can say that. We've been making plan to taste all FroYo stores spread in Jakarta.
And Twistberry are waiting for tomorrow! ha!

>Questions?

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What if you lived a life like Michael Jackson's? could you survive from it?
What if you were the wealthiest person on Earth, defeated Warren Buffet and Bill Gates?
or what if you were born as one of their kids? living a royal life
What if you were born as Serena or Blair in Gossip Girl series?
What if you had telepathy ability like Sookie Stackhouse in True Blood?
What if you had 6th sense just like a character in movies. let says Heroes?
What if you could be whoever you want to be, just like Mystique in X-Men?
What if you were a President of somewhat country?
What if you were the most powerful person who could take control the world to praise you?
What if you were the most beautiful, the coolest, and the smartest person that ever exist?
What if you had an ability to solve the unsolved problems in the world? like starvation, poverty, crime, and so on
What if you had a chance to meet someone you adore and admire so much, your role model, your lifetime idol?
What if you could go shopping just by pointing your finger at things you want to buy?
What if you could turn back time and fix your mistakes?
What if you could forward time to the future, and see what's life going to be?
What if you could pick your parents to be when you were about to be born?
What if you could choose your own physical attributes?
What if you were about to be a parent in an hour?
What if you could talk to God as easy as talk to your best friends?
What if you were facing your death sentence in a minute?
What if you suffered a deadly disease like cancer or HIV?
What if you only had a day left to live?
What if you were about to commit suicide?
What if you were one of the always starving children in Ethiopia?
What if you were the poorest person on this planet?
What if you were the person that FBI and CIA have been looking for all of this time, like terrorist? maybe Osama Bin Laden, for an example
What if you were caught shoplifting, or stealing, or killing somebody?
What if you were someone from the past?
What if you did not life at this century?
What if you were not you?
What if you were me?
What if you were a god?

What if this, what if that? would you do this? would you do that?
there are still so many What ifs, and i can't mention them one by one anymore
i did think hard to recall those questions above

well, those are questions that like to pop up in my mind
no one could answer them and yea, call me a dreamer, go ahead! i love daydreaming though
i make those questions as a lesson for me to appreciate my life more, what i've been through so far, what i've done and said
i never regret any of it in any single time of my life, really...
one thing i know for sure i always thank God because he created me whatever i am now
even sometimes life is harsh, cruel, and hard
even sometimes i jealous to someone's life which seems better than mine
but i believe God has His own purpose and it will be the best for me and you

What if i have to end this post now? =p

>Farewell MJ

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the luxurious casket layered by 14 carat gold and blue velvet inside


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Jackson brothers all wearing the same sequin gloves
from left to right: Randy, Tito, Marlon, Jackie, and Jermaine


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ex-girlfriend, Brooke Shields giving speech
mostly about their dating time when they were a couple
listening to this obviously get my heart touched!


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"Smiles though your heart is aching"
what a motivational lines!


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Usher singing Gone Too Soon


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Usher can't keep his commotion anymore and then he bursts into tears
he touched me either with his voice and reaction


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Jennifer Hudson singing Will You Be There, so powerful!


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they got his back, hugging, being a strength and a shoulder to each other
what a solid family!


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Paris hug her uncle, Marlon after he gave emotional speech about Jacko


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and this one is the most touching part of the MJ's Memorial
Paris giving sad speech in sob and tears
"I just want to say, ever since i was born, daddy has been the best father you could ever imagine and i just want to say, i love you so much"
listening to those emotional words breaks my heart, it might be the most saddened moment that i have ever seen in my life


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every time i remember or see this part i shed my tears
and it's not one or two drips but a lot
i have watched this Public Memorial 4 times, and i cried 4 times either


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Paris bursts into tears and turning to the arms of her aunt, Janet
it's so painful yet touching to see! it's like nobody could feel what she felt inside
loss, miss, sad, all at once

In our darkest hour
In my deepest despair
Will you still care?
Will you be there?
In my trials
And my tribulations
Through our doubts
And frustrations
In my violence
In my turbulence
Through my fear
And my confessions
In my anguish and my pain
Through my joy and my sorrow
In the promise of tomorrow
I'll never let you part
For you're always in my heart
(Will You Be There - MJ)
appeared on the wide screen on top of the stage behind Jennifer Hudson while she was singing the song

that farewell was the most watched Public Memorial that have ever seen on TV!
it was truly a heart-breaking moment and every normal person who watch this cries, i do, and i did it a lot!
well, you said This Is It but This Is not It Michael...
i wouldn't ever say goodbye to you, because it's not the end, the most wonderful part is even started...
he will live in my heart forever (i'll keep saying that to myself many times because i know deep down in my heart he is in a better place right now)
sometimes these thoughts are floating in my mind "Why an amazing, incredibly talented, an icon, King of Pop, has gone too soon? Why God take him so early when everybody were waiting for him to come back?" i'm just running out of thoughts and maybe this would be the best answer "God has done the best by taking him back to home in His side besides letting him still suffer in this cruel world, God is not mean, and God never wrong"
i'll remember you as the most genuine, humble, pure, nice, and down to earth person that has ever lived on Earth, not the one who lived a live full of controversial.
Though i haven't got a chance to see you. i guess i will never have
but your close friends, your family, your fans say that and i do believe them
other people should agree with this instead making silly and stupid rumors about you out there! it's just nonsense! can't them let you rest in peace?! o, gosh!
when i know that he'll be buried brainless, it's like "what?! those people are insane! he's dead and now his brain is taken from him." but i'm sure it's the best for him and his closest people around
let the truth be revealed soon!
there are outspokened of tears that i have shed for you
it's like "O, gosh! i'm afraid i would running out of tears and then my eyes got swollen"
at those times, seems like there is no right word can describes my feeling best
but i know i can't keep doing like this, i have to move on, and spread the joy and love that you have brought to us from times through times
i'm running out of words but all that i want to say is
i'm glad that i'm not late to enjoy your amazing talent as an artist
most of all, i still got a chance to be your fans!
i want to thank God for you and for those chances... =)
my heart goes to his children and his family as always
last, thank you so much for everything Jacko... you'll never be forgotten


>It's Been Like Almost A Week

>I guess my sadness of MJ's death started to heal. The news help me get through with these, thanks to the media!
I think i'm gonna believe what i know now.
Seeing n letting him stay alive was just too painful with all of the burdens that he had to carry on his shoulders.
He has done the best for his fans worldwide for like years.
Maybe 25 June 2009, was the right time for him to leave this cruel world.
God has done His job at the right time and place, God would never ever be wrong and thank God for that!
And i 'm sure he from above doesn't want to see all of his fans keep crying n mourning for his death, he wants us to let him go peacefully, be happy after all, and just keep the faith that he's in a better place right now.
I know it's hard but it happened and i have to move on at least that's what i keep saying to myself. Of course, you guys can do that either!
Until one day, i would stand up and be tough for him again, i know it will happen as soon as possible
There would be many more upcoming news, bad or good related to his death
All we have to do is just believe to what our heart says besides the really reliable sources
He might can't be seen again but his amazing voice, his songs, and his nice personality will stay in everyone's heart and mind forever
He might have gone but it doesn't mean he is forgotten
Whether you agree with me or not i hope i don't offense anyone with my words. well, it's just my opinion though...
Let's smile again for him, so he can see from above we always happy for what he had done in his life
Last, i hope, everybody hopes the truth behind this tragedy will be revealed soon
My prayer goes to his family, especially his 3 little children.

Love you always, Jacko

this Wiki article help me erase my sadness, click here pay notice to Health section

>To The King Of Pop

>Dear Jacko,
You love your fans until you Don't Stop 'til You Get Enough
We always Rock with You every time we listen to you
We don't mind Workin' Day and Night just to get a chance to see you live
Once you said It's the Falling in Love to Lisa Marie Presley
But two years later you tell us She's Out of My Life
You didn't give up until that and then you Wanna Be Startin' Somethin new in relationship
You met Debora Rowe, she became your Girlfriend and you said The Girl is Mine
Yea, once again you Beat It, the love story Off The Wall
The next story you remain Just Good Friends with two women that were matter the most in your life
The Way You Make Me Feel makes me want to Get on The Floor
You were like Man in The Mirror, can be seen but can't be touched
I would admit that I did Smooth Criminal by accusing you without knowing the truth
That's why we were all look like Billie Jean and Dirty Diana
Whereas all you ever wanted to do is Heal The World
You never mind about Black or White, we are all the same in your eyes
Your love to earth can't be measured by singing the Earth Song, it's much more than that
And suddenly you started to feel like Stranger in Moscow
You think that They Don't Care About Us
Your traumatic times at Childhood, makes you feel lonely
In fact, You Are Not Alone, never
We always Smile with you, here
We wanted to say that I'll Be There always, for you Michael
But you didn't ever know that and it became even Bad
You were getting more Dangerous
Your Human Nature won't let you live your life any second more
Maybe you feel like you lived In The Closet, it was Jam
Maybe you often ask to yourself Why You Wanna Trip on Me
When you asked Who Is It to yourself, it's too late already
Right now you are HIStory
I Scream, everybody Scream why did you Gone too Soon?
The world Cry and mourn, because there would never be another like you
Now we have to continue your will, Come Together as a united
We have to Keep the Faith because at This Time Around might be the hardest time for us
I will always Remember The Time, times when you performed amazingly on stages
Your life might be a Thriller and Another Part of Me won't believe it
but I know I Just Can't Stop Loving You, you will live in my heart for eternity

This poem is dedicated to

The Late Michael Jackson

1958-2009

Hope you can read it from Above, Jacko...

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I love him more like this, before he did all of the plastic surgeries

p.s: this poem are arranged from MJ's songs, not all, just the most well known